My ex denied ever being with me….im devastated….help?

This might be long, but I promise you, Every detail is necessary-
I likd Kason. Frm when I 1st met him, wich was when I was about 4 yrs old. He was 5. I had an insta-crush on him 4rm the beginning. He was/is cute, funny, sensative and sweet but He moved away from our original town when he was about six, and I rarely ever see him..He comes down sumtimes 2 c his oldr sister…..
I am 15 yrs old, hes 16. 3 months ago I got this great idea 2 get his phone # frm my friend. I did. & thats where it strted. I got ahold of him, & we hit it off right away. He was suprised I had gotten a phone, as my parents are strict…We strted having a deep conversation about our parents, wht we disliked about our lifes and stuff. Our dad’s have the same job, pastors, & we talked about how we hated being pressurized 2 serve God. The same day I contacted him, he started 2 question me & ask if I liked him. I said yes, & he told me he’s always liked me, frm the 1st time he’s met me. We instantly fell in2 a relationship…stupid. While dating, he called me tons of times, & wld end our long phone call with an “I love you”. He tld me how he knew i was the “one”… I was so in love that when I got my phone taken away bcuz of falling grades, I borowed my friends phone to txt him. I would even borrow my sister’s phone during service to txt him. I was head ovr heels 4 him, in fact. Bt I ruined our relationship. I WAS really unconfident about myself, & would always b fishing him 4 compliments. I wld always think every1 was prettier than me, when he would tell me otherwise. I began to do this over and over, until he put the relationship off. He got tired of my lack of confidence, & I don’t blame him. He had bought plane tickets 2 come c me before christmas (while we were together) so when we broke up, he told me to wait it out & we would see what happens when he came down. I didnt text him for about a week. He flew down, alone, and got here the day of the christmas party. He came, & we greeted each other. We couldn’t talk too deeply though, bcuz his sister would beat my a** if she knew we were dating. she hates me..So he shook my hand, & I ignored him the whole party. I got shy, but @ the end I said goodbye. He kindly shook my hand. The next day, @ church, I didnt talk 2 him morning service. Night service, I did talk to him, but not much. We flirted, & he followed me alot. He would constantly catch my eye, but hed quickly look awy. I thought he would come 2 service Wednesday, but he didn’t. I was sad I didn’t say goodbye, & effort to do so, I txtd him Wednesay service on my sisters phone. This is the convo.
M=Me
k=kason

M-Hey u coming 2nite?
k-Whos this?
M-ugh. (He knew it was my sisters #,he has it in his contacts)
k- Ugh? No seriously, who is this? This is Kason. Who is speaking???
M-Your secret admirer. jk Marissa, silly. U coming?
k-Nope. Heading back rite now.
M-Oh. bummer. I didnt even say goodbye.well g2g
M-(I texted him again because I wanted to see what was “up”. Like between us)
so…I have her phone. We can talk about anything….anything Im free
K- We cant talk anymore.
M- What is that supposed 2 mean?
K- It means I dont like you. I mean, we can talk, only if the conversation doesn’t start 2 get weird or anything.
M- Um. Well thts kinda what i meant. well tht 1 day, when I cussed u out, that wsnt me…It was my friend. She got mad because I told her what happened abt corie, and she’s like cuss him out!! When i refused, she did it 4 me. I had no say in the matter. I would never cuss you out, but im sorry. Its my fault.
K-& it came back 2 bite u in the ass. Sucks 2 b u. (He is NVER like this!!)
(He is NEVER like this!! Ive never seen this side of him. EVER)
M-What is your PROBLEM? Im trying to apologize for something a “friend” did, and your doing this? I didnt even do anything? Wtf? If your going to get all butt hurt about an apology, warn me now.
k-whats my PROBLEM? I have been trying to tell you i dont like you for the past LIFETIME. You dont listen. you send me all these dirty texts and always ask me whats on my mind and stuff. Its fucking weird.
M-What the hell? Ask you whats on your mind? Ive NEVER asked you what was on your mind. NEVER. And I sent you dirty texts, not pics. Wanna know why? because you ASKED me too. That one night. While we were DATING. Was that illigal. And did I mention you asked me to se*xt you? Hah yah you really tried telling me. You know what else you told me? You told me you loved me. That I was “the one” Dont give me that bullshit, kason. And im not here to get you back, kason. I have a byfriend, so obviously, thats not the case, is it?
K- Fun
K- Funny, I dont remember saying any of that stuff. And how could I have said that when my phone has been lent out to a friend for a while?
M- Right. You called me. Proof.
K- I did call you. ONCE.
k- Wow. HAH! I just realized how good Ryan got you. Wow. Hah I got to give that dude props.
M- HAH! …SURE! im so sure. WhatEVER. This is not worth my time right now. Look, Im not stupid, kason. We both know what happened..Im in too much of a good mood right now to let you ruin this. This is stupid, and a waste of time, time, time. hah. Talk to you later, Kason.
NO REPLY

why the hell is he doing this? Is he scared his sis is going to find out? Im so confused. I know it was him, because of all the personal stuff he shared with me. And how would his friend know all about the things me and kason did when we were kids? Because kason continuoulsy brought up memories of us….we would always talk about cute things we did. Hes lying, but i dont know why.

Also, two days after the we
wednesday, me and my friend from church went out to eat. She said kason was staring at me ALL the time, he wouldnt stop looking at me, and his sister would nudge him everytime she cought him. He made it pretty obvious, he would always sneak glances, she said. I also had four other people tell me things like “dude kason was staring at you the WHOLE time! What do you think this means? Im so confused. Im still in love with him, and i want to stop fighting. What do I so?

Sorry it was so long. But everything was important…

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